For once I made my own title ^^

Warning: Guys, I'm about to sound like a total dysfunctional, insane weirdo-freak. This is who I am. I may sound aggressive and even violent, I suppose, but please keep in mind I'm not, just very anxious and tense. Oh and it's also a veryyy long read, definitely suggest not reading it if you don't know how weird I can be sometimes.

This journal has a much more involved purpose but I'd like to start it off by saying Summer Break has come This is great but here comes (it always happens) the time when I stay up late, alone, and resort to occupying myself with extreeeeemly deep, abstract, and strange thoughts. I'm going to try to keep it at bay this summer but this is seriously how I came to be who I am o.O

Ulkae.

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This started from me wanting to become more adept at remembering my dreams. So I searched "How to Remember Dreams" on Google. Then I searched 'dream' on Wikipedia. And through countless link distractions I came to this [link] [link] [link]
If you have the time, read it, please. It's very interesting and will open your mind, but don't get too involved or you'll end up like me. If you don't here's the summary sentence. Keep in mind this is only one of my/the universal reality theories out there.

"Simulated reality is the proposition that reality could be simulated— perhaps by computer simulation—to a degree indistinguishable from "true" reality. It could contain conscious minds which may or may not know that they are living inside a simulation. In its strongest form, the "simulation hypothesis" claims it is possible and even probable that we are actually living in such a simulation."

This goes pretty comfortably with a phrase/theory I made-

"A dream becomes a reality as soon as it becomes real enough to believe."

This means therefore that reality is fake, does not exist, has never existed, and never will exist. Reality is simply a malfunction and illusion created by our human minds - or higher beings (and I don't mean a god). Our imagination and thirst for irrefutable knowledge/truth has began to turn against us, me being a great example.

If I were to believe this was 100% true (which I don't, I'm open to all theories), and even if I didn't, here's my evidence. Relativity. I don't mean Einstein's take on relativity, I mean natural human-born relativity. We all are victims to relativity and there's nothing we can do to help it, it's nature.

So what exactly is my take on relativity? It's the measuring or perception of anything through a single viewpoint. Basically, perspective-based judgments, often expressed using words like short, long, big, small, etc. Still don't get it?

Think of the lifetime of an average housefly. They live about a month (in the wild). We, as humans, would most likely describe a housefly's lifespan as short without thinking much of it, using that as a simple fact. But it's not a fact, simply a relative measurement, most likely in measurement to ourselves.

Now, pretend you're the fly. Your kind has been around for an unimaginable amount of time. Your average lifespan is about a month. It's not unfair, it's not short, it's all you've ever known, it's life. Now think of the average human lifespan, about 80 years or so. How would you describe it? Most would say Long without thinking much of it, using that as a simple fact. But it's not a fact, simply a relative measurement, most likely in measurement to our own.

See how this works? The human nor the fly's descriptions are facts, they're simply biased viewpoints. We, as humans, go along our whole lives making and hearing of countless of these relative observations and, as a result, it's grown hard for us to think otherwise. This is what I mean by relativity.

Now, think of the last dream you remember with other people in it. Perhaps one where you weren't even there, it was just an environment. How long do you think that dream lasted? 15 minutes? 30 minutes? Well the truth is, it makes no difference. Perhaps a mere 20 minutes to us is simply a tiny spec of time, but think of what OUR 20 minutes is to the people in your dreams'. What if a second of our time was a day in theirs? This isn't to say that the way we measure time is wrong, nor is theirs, but simply there is no wrong.

We wouldn't think 20 minutes is even near enough to live a life. We can barely eat a meal in 20 minutes. But what about for them? What if it was enough for them? What if that's all they've ever known? What if they had no idea that their relative view of a "lifetime" was simply a blink of an eye in ours? They don't think it's unfair, or short, or long, it simply is.

And before either of us know it, our 20 minutes and their lifetime finally comes to an end, the final bead of sand drops, and our dream ends. They don't die. They don't disappear. They merely don't. They become nothing. Nothing to grieve about, nothing to remember. They and their world simply become something that never existed. All that remains of them is a probably distorted and incorrect memory in our mind that's going to becoming nothing just as they did as we climb out of our bed. We don't think much of it. They were simply figments of our imagination that like to show up every night, after all this dream thing is just a nightly routine.

Now I know what you're thinking.
"Who gives a ****, and what do you mean? Honestly, who cares about those people, they never were real anyways, and they never will be again, so really, who cares?"

Well, that's the point.

Think of everything I just said, or even read it again, but this time, imagine WE'RE those people. Those foreign figments. Those uninformed fools. The billions of years our universe has existed is merely 20 minutes in the mind of some person, warm and cozy in their bed. And just like that, we're gone. We never existed, we were never real, we can never grieve about that which we thought was real but actually wasn't.

And there you have it. Maybe we're just as real as the people in our dreams. And maybe the person who's dreaming us is just as real as us. And the person dreaming of them is the same. But in the end we're all just nothing.

My point is: Maybe this is just a dream. Maybe one moment we'll be flourishing in our wonderful world and the next all will be black.

The funny part is, the one who will look at this and laugh saying "This is stupid, it's obviously fake and impossible. How could such a short amount of time be so ridiculously long to someone else?" is probably also the one bound by relativity. The one who can't look through the eyes of others for a single second and not immediately deem something as stupid and impossible just because it's easier to say so.

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Alright, so, yes o.O There's my massive wall of text, sorry if you actually read all of that, but I really need to get thoughts off my chest sometimes or they can really screw me up D: If you're going to be another one who thinks this is stupid and impossible, please do me a favor and don't comment. Save me the little prick in my heart that reminds me how close-minded and relativity-bound the majority of this fake population is.

Update: After re-reading this I'm totally paranoid. My depth perception is totally screwed and this screen looks really tiny. This always happens when I deal with abstract stuff But either way it was really nice to document this. Often I have thoughts I say I'll write down until they become a huge overwhelming pile of scattered stuff. Then I forget it. Have a good day